Spring Semester Switch-Up

I was planning on taking another class; however with needing a total of 600 internship hours, I have decided to concentrate only on my internships which are 300 hours each. I will be completing both internships simultaneously and the paperwork will be doubled. I really don't want to be concerned with additional readings and papers which come with taking a class. Here I will be working 40 hours per week for about 17 weeks. I gave myself an additional 2 weeks so I have time to put together 2 binders and make sure I have the required paperwork to graduate. I am nervous and excited as well as looking to see where God leads next.

My Time in Seminary

My time in seminary is close to an end. I have one semester left which leaves me with one more class as well as two internships. I started at Grand Rapids Theological Seminary in the Fall of 2006 working on a Masters of Counseling with an emphasis on Women. My first two classes were Marriage and Family Counseling and Spiritual Formation. I did really well in those two classes so for the Spring Semester 2007 I had decided to up my class load to three classes. That was a huge mistake because I was way over scheduled and thought I was going to die. I passed them all though I never took three classes again until now and of course next semester will also be technically three classes.

In 2007, I also survived Systematic Theology. I took all three classes in the same year starting with Systematic Theology I in the Spring following with II in the Summer then III in the Fall of 2007. Yes, I did it and survived as well as bought the t-shirt stating "I survived Systematic Theology."

The year of 2008 brought some excitement when I learned I was pregnant with our first child in August/September. My due date was June 6th and we were also looking for a house which we bought in October so that semester was a really crazy time for me in getting situated in our new house. I wanted to be settled into a house before classes started so I feel better sitting in class while being pregnant at the same time though we ended up moving in the middle of the semester.

A month later in November of 2008 I ended up miscarrying our first child. I guess the blessing here is that I miscarried a week before Thanksgiving break so I basically missed one week of classes. I thought about dropping out for the semester to recoup; however, I counted how many weeks I had left to finish and decided to plug away then mourn over Christmas break. Papers were as good as they were going to get so I turned those in "as is" and accepted whatever grade they received. Needless to say, Christmas Break really sucked.

Year of 2009 I learned I was very close to graduating and freaked out because I wasn't ready to graduate. I felt very unprepared and scared out of my wits to do counseling. So God decided to switch up the plan. In May, I learned I was pregnant again though this time the due date was March 29th, 2010. Ugh! That is the middle of the semester so obviously I was going to have to hold off on finishing up and go another year instead completing my degree during the summer of 2009.

Fall of 2009 hit I was feeling unmotivated, loss of energy and wondering why on earth I was taking classes in the middle of my pregnancy. Reading was hopeless considering I lost my concentration, hormones were all over the place and my patience went out the window. Sleep is now something of the past since I was at a loss for finding a comfortable sleeping position. However, I trudged through by the grace of God and my Counseling professors were very understanding.

My hope was that I was taking Spring of 2010 semester off as well as the summer because I knew I would be giving my employer my two weeks notice once my maternity leave was finished and prayed Denver would let me be a stay-at-home mom for a season. I also prayed my son arrive a week early so everyone will be able to enjoy their own day and keep from clumping them together.

God answered prayer very directly. Jaedon Daniel was born on March 22, 2010 and Denver said that I will be a stay-at-home mom for the summer and pick-up classes again Fall Semester of 2010. So Fall of 2010 arrived with much tribulation. During the summer, I was able to find a Practicum site, which is a short internship with much supervision, however by the end of August, they decided to close down the program which meant I no longer had a practicum. Ugh! I called and called every place I knew that did practicums and internships though low and behold all of them were full. I prayed and figured the timing was poor for practicum so I dropped the class though needed another class to keep financial aid. I hunted and picked classes and I changed my schedule three times. Classes have started and I show up at my evening Research Methodology class. A classmate talks to me about what he is doing for practicum and would love to have me join him. I said "Really?", to which he responded, "Yes." I got his information and called as to where he is doing his practicum and the pastor called me back saying that they would love to have me. So there I am again at 8:30 p.m. on the last day of the Add/Drop period, at the registration website changing my schedule again to re-add the Practicum class. I was excited that someone wants me to be somewhere to do something in the realm of counseling after being told "No" at each phone call. My heart cried.

So next semester, Spring of 2011. I will complete both internships at the same site as my practicum which in-turn will be my life vocation, or until God calls me elsewhere, so I will be pursuing my LPC (Licensed Professional Counselor) by racking up hours as well as my CAAC (Certified Addictions Counselor). I will be walking and graduating with a LLPC (Limited Licensed Professional Counselor) in May 2011.

Extra Bonus: Jaedon will be 1 year old.

Death

I lost a very close friend of mine last weekend which is also the same weekend when Katrina hit five years ago and the memories of the weather in Tennessee are weakening though the damage not so much. Thus, the beautiful funeral service for my dear friend will also weaken though the memory of her spirit will still remain strong in my heart.

When God Moves

One of my closest friends contacted me through one of those personalized web sites for keeping up with friends who live close to you and far away. I am not sure if she would like me to share her name and we had a healthy friendship. She did not have a problem calling me out on things I should not be doing to myself or others. She got married and eventually I got married. I divorced and she remains married to her love, Mike who is/was in the United States Air Force. I found out she lives a few hours away from me in Linden, Michigan and we hope to reconnect soon so we will be seeing each other.

Because I was dysfunctional in relationships, God figured I would not learn where I was at in Ohio so He moved me to Michigan. It is very difficult to be in dysfunctional relationships when no one knows you. So here in Michigan began the second part of my healing/therapy. How do I be functional in relationships? Well, I went back to school to work on my bachelors at the age of 31. Here I learned many things about myself and others. I attended a small church in Ohio though got somewhat involved at a large church in Michigan and stayed with that church for close to nine years. It is very difficult to be dependent on others when no one around you is willing to be an enabler so I learned how to be inter-dependent which I believe is how God created us. I am very excited to reconnect with a friend though now I wait for her to call me back.

What Can I Say?

God amazes me every day I wake up with Him by my side. It is not every morning that I imagine God sleeping in my bed though I do imagine Him going to bed with me every night. I curl in His arms as He holds me calming my mind from the day's work and all the goings-on I had to deal with throughout the day.

Dealings with the Roman Catholic Church

My childhood overall was okay. The worst thing I did was denounce God and the best thing I did was horseback riding camp which lasted a week. The denouncing God thing lasted about 20 something years while in the process of becoming an astrologist beginning at age 13. I suppose this is me being an idealist in thinking that the catholic (meaning "universal") church was there to help others and if the catholic church could not help directly then the church would find who could help or at least show a direction in which to take for help.

However, this was not the Roman Catholic Church in which my family at the time attended during my most formidable childhood years. My family went to the priests for help and stated that they could not help us and that was the end of discussion thus the end of my relationship with the Roman Catholic Church and God.

Understanding the Past

To understand who I am today, I need to understand my past. I have learned to rationalize many things about my past and yet, there are people in my past who have not taking responsibility for the things they have done. I have been able to forgive them and I continue to forgive because Satan has the habit of bringing this stuff up and gets me to think I have not forgiven these people who have hurt me. I believe the worst thing a church can do is misinterpret scripture and this is exactly what the Roman Catholic Church has done and in the process has done damage to my family including myself.

My story begins at the age of 12 when I disowned God stating that the Roman Catholic Church was not His church who stated they followed God when in fact they were not; therefore, God did not exist. Martin Luther had an understanding of how the Roman Catholic Church was to be which was the point of his 95-page thesis. I believe Martin Luther and I have many things in common and one of them is being an idealist. More on this at a later date because I have many things to say and I need to get other things done today other than writing.

Whole Point of Sanctification

I am an amateur blogger and a friend encouraged me to blog a few years back and now I am getting started. I have one blog started about organization so I am dedicating this blog to my experiences with God in my life. I have been a dedicated believer of recognizing Jesus as Lord for 12 years. I have known God existed since I was child in the Roman Catholic Church. Some people would consider me be a recovering Roman Catholic and others would view me as a redeemed sinner. I view myself as a sanctified child of God who is also in the process of being sanctified to be who God wants me to be in Him and this is the journey.